We haven´t been around here a lot in the last month. Mainly, because we didn´t get around to a lot anyway, because we were so busy organising a week of Missions Mobilising Training here at MDT.
It was a colourful, exhausting, challenging, exciting, God-moment filled week with five-hour-sleep nights and many lessons to be learned. It was a week in which we challenged the people that attented our training to count the cost and lay their lives down, so that all the peoples would get a chance to hear about Jesus.
We thought of John Keith Falconer who said:
I have but one candle of life to burn, and I would rather burn it out in a land filled with darkness than in a land flooded with light.
In the end, we sat around the camp fire and listened to the stories of fires ignited in the participants. It was beautiful and rewarding – but we were tired!
And we were tired for the next week.
We read the life story of Elijah, how he was tempted to give in to exhaustion and hopelessness and give up, just after he had seen fire come down from heaven. And we were tempted to give in to exhaustion and hopelessness and give up.
We canceled a dinner invitation, because we just couldn´t make it.
They invited us back for tonight.
We had good wine and better conversations. The couple that´s been married for twenty years laughed with us 14-months newly-weds about the ups and downs of marriage. Then the conversation moved to the things that have become our lives: Going to another country simply because God said so. Figuring out how can you know that God said so. And living it out, every rewarding, challenging, tiring, lonely, beautiful part of it.
We share questions and confusion and cake for dessert.
Afterwards, they take us to their living room and show us a short video clip of a family of five following the love of God to China to care for unwanted orphans.
Suddenly all the questions and confusions don´t seem to matter so much anymore.
After five seconds of digesting the “Wows”, Hanno bursts out: “We should just pack up and go.”
The Father of Lights will hold us in the darkness, whether it´s the darkness in us or the darkness out there.
If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,” even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you.